There was a time when I had some peace. A time when I didn’t have a cell phone. Didn’t instant message.
When I wasn’t at home, I never had to wonder why someone wasn’t calling me. When I was on my computer, I didn’t have to see someone else online and wonder why they weren’t IMing me.
But now. Now, I am painfully aware when my phone, always within a few feet of me, isn’t ringing. Now, when I am on my computer, I have an always visible list of who are at their computers. And if someone isn’t online, then I have to wonder what they are doing not at their computer.
And some dots I follow from green to orange to grey, as if those colors will give me something to make me feel more connected.